I wanna disappear
I just sleep all day
The spots on my hands
My skin just like sand
The air so cold, I shutter and I can't sing

Carpet on my feet, sweat stains on the sheets
Cough, syrup and drugs, bandages and gods
Razors dull, water cold against my skin
Radio loud, ecstatic, buzzing around like a tin

And all these empty plans, ink stains on my hands
And everyone says the best words for the gray
Of these weary morning tones
I probably saved mine too
If heaven's just a long road home 
Tell me it's true, I'll come too
I'll come too, I'll come too...

I lost my innocence today 
I could feel her in my bones 
My bones, my bones, my bones 
My blood, my blood, my blood, my blood 

And I woke up, tired, scared and sad 
Soaked, drained, I felt so bad 
Today, today, today 
What you still, you still, you still, you still 
Won't you say, you say, you say, you say 
What you feel, you feel, you feel, you feel 
Which is nothing but hollow feelings, yeah 
I can, done, I just don't care 

And forget happiness, I'm fine 
I'll forget everything in time 
I swear I didn't know, 
You know me, how I can't let go 
And we're not guts, we're just hacks 
All that life got lose the cracks 
The scars, the scene that breaks 
The ugly teens, the worst mistakes 
And everywhere I see her face 
Such a beautiful child, such an awful waste 
And there's no innocence like hers 
Just emptiness and nerves 

And this light from the window of my car 
She'll never see it, oh my God 
I was so surprised, it blew up in my face 
Lord, I lost my nerve, oh my God 
Oh my God, oh my... God 
And I tear, I tear, so hard 
And I tear, I tear, so hard 
And I beg and scream, "I was wrong" 
It's over, she's gone