I've been racing for you honey 
But you take your love 
From under my feet 
The very moment I arrive 
I hold the invitation in my hand 
You smile and I don't understand 
When you tell me the writing ain't yours 
You were the one thing I could count on 
Even if your apathy was what I expected 
Oh darling I waited and waited to feel your footsteps 
And to hear your breath 
But maybe I just wanted someone to wait for 

You were ever in my mind 
You were behind my soul each time 
I held it to the flame 
You were ever in my precious thoughts 
I'd leave a room of angels 
Just to be alone 
If only to say your name 
I never told you I needed you darling 
Like a rose needs the rain 
How could you possibly know how much 
So I reach for your love 
Like the moon and the stars 
Ever in my sight 
Ever out of touch 

There's a spotlight of a holy kind 
Think it comes from somewhere 
Up in the sky or from some far off lovely place 
But this light never ever ever shone on me 
At least as far as I could see 
So I sat in the dark and I watched you 
Now I just cry to myself 
When there's no one around 
And I teach myself to walk backwards 
Out of any given situation 
Yes I can be graceful and try 
Not to step on my train and 
You don't have to say goodbye 
But I'll be right here if you want to 

Now I could paint your portrait 
If I never saw you again 
When I am old someone may ask me 
If I ever loved 
And I will speak but they won't recognize 
My words, they'll say I'm telling lies 
And maybe I am 
Maybe I am 
All I know is