I remember now, but I still have my doubts 
I think it's gonna be today 
Everybody came, but it's just not the same 
Why did it have to be today? 
Now my chest is tight - no, I am not all right 
It doesn't have to be this way 
Why does it have to be this way? 

I dont know what´s wrong,
It´s like I´m to far gone
It doesn´t matter, anyway
Fear is in my heart - just when I stop it starts
And I can never live this way

Freedom in a cage - no sun and too much rage 
I don't know how much i can take 
Push it down inside,but it knows just where to hide 
I know that "normal" is hard to fake 
BLeeding into life - it's like a thousand knives 
Are slowly turning me into this 
Why does it have to be like this? 

I dont know what´s wrong,
It´s like I´m to far gone
It doesn´t matter, anyway
Fear is in my heart - just when I stop it starts
And I can never live this way (2x)

I lost again, today... 

I dont know what´s wrong,
It´s like I´m to far gone
It doesn´t matter, anyway
Fear is in my heart - just when I stop it starts
And I can never live this way
Living with a curse, sometimes it´s even worse
It slowly kills me everyday
Something I despise is gonna take my life 
I guess I´ll try again today