I'll be the one last breath before this death
I'll be the final glimpse of truth when there's none left
And if I shame your face, degrade your faith
I'll be the first to hide behind disgrace
Blood-loss- on account of my failing aim
Treason- At the root of my shameful name

I found my way to fall
I never meant to break your heart

Breathing in this pain (rejecting all I am)
I hear you cry again (is this my final stand?)
Before I go (before I lose it all)
You should know (I hate myself for hurting you)

I see the burn of the light from within my grave
I feel the pain of contradiction despite decay
And if the shadow of doubt will betray this gain 
Then put an end to me now while the hope remains
Blood-loss- on the account of my failing aim
Treason- at the root of my shameful name

Breathing in this pain (rejecting all I am)
I hear you cry again (is this my final stand?)
Before I go (before I lose it all)
You should know (I hate myself for hurting you)

This is not my life
This is not our life
Every day I die 
This is not my life