So Hard 2 Take

Brokencyde

I'm trying so hard
To get you out of my mind

I tried so hard, until it was all over and done with
My feelings were long gone, no longer hurt in my 
stomach
At first it was love kid, then turned into constant 
arguments
I tried my hardest to stop it, this bitching always 
started it
Taking advantage of my fragile heart, tore it apart
Fixated on attraction,I should've known from the start
Overpowered by hazel eyes, my mind paused for a minute 
Picturing love, there wasn't nothing that could block 
the image
My thoughts depended on her actions, her ways, her love
Answered by the gods of lust, I prayed enough
Embraced her trust, made no fuss and dreamed happily
Day by day I noticed the pain increased rapidly 
In the dying sense I tried to forget it and let it pass
But By doing this I forced a relationship that would 
never last
Every path was fabricated, all trust was gone
Playing stupid as if I never knew what went wrong

I questioned my love for you
You're leaving me 
You knew I can't handle this pain
Crying for you in this rain
Why won't you say you're sorry?
Turn around and come back home
I'm just so tired of being alone

I hate her, how many times haven't I said it?
I hate the fact that she hates me, and I shall never 
forget it
Never had I ever fucked with her feelings, let her 
regret it
All of these years, lost into tears, that my letters 
presented 
I still miss her, catch myself slitting my wrists
With the glass, I separated from the last picture 
reflect
Together as one, wondering what I have done to take 
this
Holding my pillow every night, wishing that she 
replaced it
Well fuck it, it's all over and done, feelings are gone
And I'm starting to get tired of love killing my songs
So that my arms and forgotten treats left in my shirt
I love you, shit I can't even say or remember the words
Never concerning anything having to do with her past
you ruined it last, quit hiding the truth in that mask
Stupid ass, I'm ignoring the crap that you moaned
We had our time, until today I hope you're happy alone

I questioned my love for you
You're leaving me 
You knew I can't handle this pain
Crying for you in this rain
Why won't you say you're sorry?
Turn around and come back home
I'm just so tired of being alone