In my mind 
In a future five years from now 
I'm 120 pounds 
And I never get hungover 
Because I will be the picture of discipline 
Never minding what state I'm in 
And I will be someone I admire 
And it's funny how I imagined that I would be that person now 
But it does not seem to have happened 
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see 
That I'm not exactly the person that I thought I'd be 

And in my mind 
In the faraway here and now 
I've become in control somehow 
And I never lose my wallet 
Because I will be the picture of discipline 
Never fucking up anything 
And I'll be a good defensive driver 
And it's funny how I imagined that I would be that person now 
But it does not seem to have happened 
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see 
That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be 

And in my mind 
When I'm old, I am beautiful 
Planting tulips and vegetables 
Which I will mindfully watch over 
Not like me, now 
I'm so busy with everything 
That I don't look at anything 
But I'm sure I'll look when I am older 
And it's funny how I imagine that I could be that person now 
But that's not what I want, if that's what I wanted then I'd be giving up somehow 
How strange to see that I don't want to be the person that I want to be 

And in my mind 
I imagine so many things 
Things that aren't really happening 
And when they put me in the ground, I'll start pounding the lid 
Saying "I haven't finished yet – 
I still have a tattoo to get 
That says 'I'm living in the moment'." 
And it's funny how I imagined that I could win this winless fight 
But maybe it isn't all that funny that I've been fighting all my life 
But maybe I have to think it's funny if I wanna live before I die 
And maybe it's funniest of all to think I'll die before I actually see 
That I am exactly the person that I want to be 

Fuck yes 
I am exactly the person that I want to be